I picture a throne on a large mountain. And sometimes we all feel like climbing up, and sitting on it. We feel better than everyone, while we are there - we tend to gossip - just speak unpleasant things about people even though they are true, we would not be ready to face the actual person with such statements, and another thing we do (or I do) is we are just very condemning - we make people feel like their sin, is beyond anything that we would do. We make them feel shame... and they are in a position where they just cannot relate to you - this just cause distance between people.
I feel distant from people when they make me feel my sin does not fit in their categories of brokenness. and I did something that they could never possibly do.
I think the magical thing is to be able to say stuff like: "if your right eye causes you to sin tear it out and throw it away" or "whoever relaxes one of the least of these commandments and teaches others to do the same will be called least in the kingdom of heaven" (holding a super high view of sin) and yet when you are asked to condemn people you can say 'I desire mercy and not sacrifice'... (no matter what someone does - it can fit in your view of brokenness). And sure as Christians we love it when Jesus says that, we are proud to have that line in our Holy Book. We love it when people remind us of that when we feel shame... But my struggle right now, is being able to say that and mean it for real things like... Would we feel they apply to say those Islamists who beheaded the Egyptian Christians for the world to see? Would we extend mercy towards them? What about if someone raped one of your friends? What about the people in Tanzania who mutilated the albino toddler? Or just pimps? People involved in the sex trade? What about the British guys, who come to Amsterdam on holiday just to have "fun" in the Red Light District, Women who have abortions?"
"if you do good to those who do good to you, what benefit is that to you? For even sinners to the same... Love your enemies and do good to those who hate you"
When it comes to brokenness and thinking of sin... we find it so hard to forgive someone for such little things...and when we do we feel all Holy, because we've extended God's grace to them... BUT how do we deal with the real stuff!? Does rape fit in our view of our own brokenness?
I think about it this way... I acknowledge that we are like all evil from Birth (- Ps 51:5, Job 14,15 and Genesis 8:21) but why do some become Priests? and some Rapists? Some are more evil than others?! I really tend to say NO... are we accountable for every word, and every action - Absolutely. But do I find explanations legitimate (they do not justify but explain) for someone becoming a rapist - Yes I do... So what I'm going to say might be outrageous... but I believe it very strongly... With a different upbringing, different life situations - I think I could be a rapist... Do I think it is an outrageous thing to do? Absolutely! Has the thought to rape someone ever crossed my mind? Never ever ever! Do I feel initial hatred for people who rape... right now... YES I do... But if I stop to think about it a bit, I wish someone could confess to rape... and while talking to them I would just be hating the sin in them, everything that led up to that moment... but being able to fulfill the words of Jesus - "I desire mercy not sacrifice" and one reason is that because I wouldn't put it passed myself...
I think about it this way... I acknowledge that we are like all evil from Birth (- Ps 51:5, Job 14,15 and Genesis 8:21) but why do some become Priests? and some Rapists? Some are more evil than others?! I really tend to say NO... are we accountable for every word, and every action - Absolutely. But do I find explanations legitimate (they do not justify but explain) for someone becoming a rapist - Yes I do... So what I'm going to say might be outrageous... but I believe it very strongly... With a different upbringing, different life situations - I think I could be a rapist... Do I think it is an outrageous thing to do? Absolutely! Has the thought to rape someone ever crossed my mind? Never ever ever! Do I feel initial hatred for people who rape... right now... YES I do... But if I stop to think about it a bit, I wish someone could confess to rape... and while talking to them I would just be hating the sin in them, everything that led up to that moment... but being able to fulfill the words of Jesus - "I desire mercy not sacrifice" and one reason is that because I wouldn't put it passed myself...